This painting has been moving me in ways that I never knew possible. I am painting this puzzle because it is a mystery to me. I keep thinking back to that day. That truly life changing, life transforming, painstaking day. Stabbing pains in my abdomen. Rage and fire burning into me. Breathing fire. The pain in my physical body was so intense that when I went numb, and my mind overcame my body, all physical was left behind me. The love that flooded my brain was so intense, as every gear switched to her. How incredibly awe struck I was. That my sister was three hours ahead of me feeling this exact pain for me.
We ascent, we transcend, we change.
Always moving, constantly evolving.
We ascent, we transcend, we change.
Always moving, constantly evolving.
This is me coming up for air
My physical and earthly form; representing me waking up from my truly angelic kidney transplant, but even more specifically, this is the image of me taking my first breath when I woke up that day. My first breath of life; and rebirth; emerging from the chrysalis. Divine affirmations and transformations downloaded effortlessly into my inner most being. Negativity doesn't live in my body anymore; and it doesn't live in yours either. With each breath I am letting go of my past so that I can genuinely focus on my future.
This is me in angelic form, or perhaps it's me as a little ghost, this is my spirit, or maybe it’s my soul. It’s the part of me that rose from my body that day, the part that was able to connect to the divine. How ever you define your own beliefs, it’s up to you. I believe in everything, and I believe in nothing. I believe in love and kindness. Positivity is my God and negativity is my evil. And any belief system is welcome into my world. I have close friends from all walks of life and all kinds of beliefs. I promote peace and wellbeing. My higher power is health, wellness, unconditional love and making the world a better place. |
I love how honey can hold such elegance. In my mind, the honey that is about to grace my temple in this painting is magically blessed. It symbolizes new life, new beginnings and second chances. It’s my way of visually understanding and explaining to myself what happened to me when I woke from my surgery. My dreaming eye became activated, and golden codes have begun to reveal themselves. A complete metamorphous. I’ve realized how much power I hold within myself. I don’t doubt myself anymore and when I’m presented an obstacle, instead of worrying about how hard it might be, I enjoy the journey it takes me on in order to get to the other side. Positivity kills negativity, and negativity doesn’t live in my body anymore. |
To me our minds eye or "third eye" is our dreaming eye; this is the eye that we see our own future with; it’s the future we want and desire. It is the eye we follow our dreams with, where anything is possible. Setting a goal, making a plan, and figuring the necessary steps to get there, no matter how hard it may be or how much work, it is worth it. Power of visualization. Manifestation. Agency. We all possess these powers.
When I woke from my transplant, my dreaming eye was activated again. Streams of golden codes downloading into my brain; the realization that I can do anything I put my heart to, no matter how hard, anything is possible. Before I had the surgery, I truly believed in my deepest and darkest heart of hearts that I was going to die. I didn’t not believe I could make it through that surgery. Waking from that transplant proved to myself that I am capable of anything. Facing my biggest fear, and beating it to the ground that day, those things make us stronger. If I can win my own war within, then I can do anything. And so can you.
When I woke from my transplant, my dreaming eye was activated again. Streams of golden codes downloading into my brain; the realization that I can do anything I put my heart to, no matter how hard, anything is possible. Before I had the surgery, I truly believed in my deepest and darkest heart of hearts that I was going to die. I didn’t not believe I could make it through that surgery. Waking from that transplant proved to myself that I am capable of anything. Facing my biggest fear, and beating it to the ground that day, those things make us stronger. If I can win my own war within, then I can do anything. And so can you.